I’ve started meditating recently. I looked it up how to do it on Youtube, found directions ,it was really simple, very clear - zen, I think, or some form of it - and the guy in the video (who was Asian and old - so I trusted his expertise on anything vaguely spiritual)  basically says  ”sit on a cushion or chair, lean forward, close your eyes slightly, but not enough that you can’t see, and empty all  of your thoughts —

…except I just realized. Thats why I go on YouTube, anyway. 

No one goes on there to learn. Let’s be honest, I’ve done that. Or tried to.

Like, “oh, maybe i’ll learn about Greek architecture, I know the term ‘hekatompedon’, which means something. That’s a start.” So I look up Greek architecture…

And the video I watch is called “Classical Orders of Greek Architecture”. It’s great, 10 thousand people thought so, anyway, they liked the video. But then I saw on the right “Secrets of the Parthenon”, and three minutes later its back to that JFK assassination shit again.